Greater you attempt to disregard your natural existence – to disregard what you imagine doing, to disregard the life-style which should come easily and naturally for you, to disregard the gifts you need to tell the planet – the greater your natural existence will stand out in small, sometimes frustrating, but always brilliant and illuminating ways.
Your natural existence will stand out within the daydreams you explore, within the hobbies you decide to spend some time on, within the books you want to read, or perhaps in the films you want to watch. In history wisely spent looking after natural, authentic a part of you.
Glimpses of the natural existence may also stand out within the profession you have chosen to follow. Whether it’s the entire-on, flat-out, this-is-what-you-were-meant-to-do lifestyle career filled with adventures and risk, or even the frustrating-almost-but-not-quite-what-you-were-meant-to-do safe and comfortable career. Steven Pressfield, in the brilliant book Turning Pro, Tap Your Inner Power and Create Your Life’s Work, describes these “safe, comfortable careers” as shadow careers:
“Sometimes, when we are terrified of embracing our true calling, we’ll pursue a shadow calling rather. That shadow calling is really a metaphor for the real career. Its shape is similar, its contours feel tantalizingly exactly the same. However a shadow career entails no real risk. When we fail in a shadow career, the consequences are meaningless to all of us… “
Steven Pressfield, Turning Pro, page 13
Shadow careers provide us with the opportunity to not need to face our fears, or our self-doubt, or our shame. They provide us a secure home in, to cover in. But safe and comfortable aren’t always the best place to be, especially within the lengthy term.
Sometimes, frequently, safe and comfortable consist of frustration or boredom or depression or knowing that there’s something else available that is ideal for us. Our daydream arrived at existence. Something better, something simple and easy , authentic – if perhaps!!!
Resistance is definitely the afterthought.
Our daydreams provide us using the original ideas of who we’re able to be and just what our existence might be like. We spend some time lost in visualizing who we may become. The minds, the dreams, the visualizations come first.
Then resistance creeps in. The always present afterthought. Our lizard voice or gremlin voice reminding us to become afraid, to face up to, to doubt ourselves, to sabotage ourselves. Therefore we remain amateurs within our own lives, hiding within the shadows.
To leave the shadows and into our natural existence we have to try to acknowledge resistance, to understand our fears, to feel safe in facing our self-doubts, and also to become self-supporting rather of self-sabotaging.
So… are you currently an amateur in your existence, living inside a shadow career considered lower by resistance and fear? And have you learned how to be a professional in your existence – to benefit in the training and gifts that resistance and fear have to give you to be able to follow your true, natural path?